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Megha's avatar

love this realisation for you! if you can’t establish a feeling of belonging and ease with yourself, it’s not worth your time or effort! so raw and beautiful :)

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raisa's avatar

Thank you for reading! 💓

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Andrés's avatar

I know you don’t need some stranger’s validation but you’re a really good writer. Your writer voice comes through very clearly. I enjoyed every sentence I read. Thanks for sharing. :)

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Elizabeth's avatar

I feel this ❤️

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raisa's avatar

Just know you are not alone love 🤍

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Sara Kay's avatar

This is so beautifully written - and as someone who shares similar feelings / experiences - know that you are not alone. I often find myself thinking this same thing, "embarrassed that at this stage of my life, when friendships should be established, effortless, and abundant" but honestly, friendship - like many things are curated on the internet and not everything is as it seems. Be kind to yourself. You are so loved.

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raisa's avatar

thank u for your kind words! love your point about how friendship may not look as it seems and can simply be a digital curation. Thank you for reading!

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M. Malik's avatar

this is so beautiful and i can’t believe someone else has had such similar experience to me!! this makes me feel so seen. i would recommend ‘the lonely city’ by olivia laing if you haven’t read it before, it’s super interesting on the subject of loneliness. great work :)

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raisa's avatar

thank u for the recommendation I'll def check it out!! thanks for reading im glad my words were able to resonate with you! 🤍

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doll's avatar

this was so real and beautiful. as a girl who struggled to make friends growing up, i felt every word. glad i found your blog!

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raisa's avatar

im glad my piece was able to resonate with you! thank you for reading, and joining my community! 🤍🤍

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emaan‧₊˚✩彡's avatar

Thank u so much for this ,I felt every single word u wrote.Ive been through some friendship breakups with extremely toxic people who I thought were my friends.everyone deserves a friendship where they can be themselves

Sending lots of love 🫶🏼

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raisa's avatar

thank you for reading! 🫶🏽

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em's avatar

thank you for writing this piece because i have been far too afraid to spend much time alone with my thoughts on this subject - you've allowed me to see that it's okay to be alone, & to not always be surrounded by a group of friends

it's okay to not always be #1 in society's eyes, and more often than not, it's not worth losing yourself along the journey of finding someone else. you are your own best friend and no one deserves the love you give out more than yourself<3

much love, kitty xx

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raisa's avatar

the part about it's not worth losing yourself while looking for someone else is so real! im glad this piece was about to resonate with you in some way 🤍 sending love to u! thank u for reading!

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sukhi's avatar

I admire your vulnerability in this so much

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raisa's avatar

thank you for reading! <3

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evalyn's avatar

wow words can't describe how recognized i feel in your writing. this is genuinely so beautiful and i'm saving it so i can pore over your words and get lost in them later 💕

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raisa's avatar

im glad i was able to resonate with you 🥺 thank you for reading! <3

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deets's avatar

this is so deeply felt. you deserve friendships that make you feel safe and seen. hope you keep holding yourself with the kindness you give so freely 💛

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raisa's avatar

thank you for your kind words! 🤍

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Alex Jenkin's avatar

Thank you for sharing your.. I mean our stories (apart from the girl part).. it’s really gonna make me cry..

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raisa's avatar

we're all in this together! thank you for reading!

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rose's avatar

‘for so long, i deemed loneliness was in the absence of people. now, i see it as the absence of myself - the way i’d hollow out my boundaries to make space for their uncertainties, how i mistook obsession for connection, how i’d cling to crumbs for attention because i had forgot to feed myself.’

perfectly worded.

and please don’t feel like your twenties are your only chance at the carefree and loving connections that insta and pop culture show.

the years beyond, when the hollows are more filled and the bones of who you are have been fed and grown strong, friendships will come more easily. you’ll find it, accept it, and recognise it more easily. i promise. 🤍

(source: someone who’s reading her younger self’s experience through your words... apart from the token part. i can’t imagine how lonely that alone is, and i’m sorry.)

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O.'s avatar

Going through the exact same thing right now. I feel so lovely seen. Love your writing too.

Sending hugs, love and a friend request🫂💝

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Valeriya 🌞🌿🪷's avatar

A beautiful piece ! Thanks so much for sharing. Friendship struggles and the yearning for belonging conjure up some of the hardest feelings ever. Completely agree that being able to be comfortable with yourself allows you to forge stronger friendships - hope you find your people soon xx

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undercoverjas's avatar

I loved the words you used to describe your thoughts and emotions. They weren’t generic and made me think. Words more complex that hold a deeper meaning to a feeling

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